it's been long since i'm that crazy, and having fun.
AND I'M LOVING IT =)
thanks friends, you all made my day=)

bunch of incoherent speech.

1. To tell everyone that i'm just fine and happy and jolly as always would be a lie.

2. but well, i'm trying.

3. at least i'm still in one piece.

4. the hardest thing to do is to love yourself, nurturing yourself with the appropriate nutrition, care, boost and confidence.

5. i'm amused by my ability to be hopelessly romantic and cynical at the same time.

6. it's so good to write things down in point form. so that i dont hv to waste my energy to connect everything together.

7. sometimes the one and only simple thing that you're hoping for could be just the thing that you didn't get. and it makes you restless even when u've got the 99 other things.

8. living for myself is such a hard thing for me.

9. i should sleep because i'm getting hungry already. i hope i'm not losing more weight )=

10. so yeah, good night everyone! might come back and blog more if i couldn't sleep.

p.s. you'll be here. i know you will.

hello.

haven't been posting here for almost half a year already lol.
in case you wanna know, i'm still alive and kicking.
past few months have been a really life-changing experience for me.
growing up, being independent, being at peace, taking the initiative, getting more involved, gaining mental strength, being happy and sad.
though it's a hard road, glad i've managed to survive it so far.
a long way ahead, but already walked through a long way, so yeah, things are not as bad as it seems.

i'm moving on...

in my dictionary, there's hardly me.
there's only person A, person B, person C......the list goes on.
why am i making myself so insignificant.
cant get through the barrier...
i still cant...
yes i sill think and care too much.

i admit.

i admit. i'm weak. i'm frail.
i have to strengthen the mind.
to withstand the overwhelming loneliness.
why other people can do it.
but i cant.
the tears...
i can't let those who care for me to be worried about me.
i must be strong for them.

UK!

hello everyone! blogging from UK now.
surviving.
i'll update more next time. bye!

selamat tinggal tanahairku. till we meet again.

approximately 24 hours more.
to those who have been loving and caring for me unconditionally, thank you.
to those who have made me angry and sad, thank you.
to you, thank you.
no apologies here. at least not for the moment.
goodbye.
till we meet again.

cheers,
Shien.