SUJU SARANGHAE^^

Super Show 2 is awesome awesome awesome.
everyone's good=)
but i'm not that crazy anymore la since my prefrontal cortex is quite developed already (non-psych majors pls just bear with me)

and erm...some self-developed sleeping philosophies:

1. when you're stressed out with anything that's related to courseworks, and you did all you could about it, and you think that if you continue to do it'll just further prove how stupid you are. go sleep.

2. when you start to say before you think. go sleep.

3. when you're developing more hypothetical thoughts than realistic thoughts. go sleep.

4. when you're getting emo. go sleep.

5. when you start thinking you're such a failure. and everything's against you. go sleep.

6. in short, when you think life sucks. go sleep.


there. more reasons/excuses to sleep more=)

life is meant to be enjoyed. and be at peace at the same time.

chocolate is sweet for the moment.

i like my hair now. not too straight and not too curly.
am waiting for pp to take pics for me to post it up because i really dont feel like camwhoring XD
and erm..
some people still sucked.
and some totally rocked my life.

tired.
not doing anything.
i wanna live by the sea and play the piano all day long.

mixed feelings...
dreamssssssssss.

glad that i managed to strive past 'death week'=)
i think the only things i screwed up are trial run and 212 midterm (one of my most disastrous midterms ever).
i am to be blamed for most part. sigh.

current mood is actually worst than last week probably because after being so bz and hectic but eventful and 过着充实愉快的生活...the emptiness is settling in. and it's creeping in fast.

and i have the feeling that good times will be up soon. thriving to be content every moment and not being too attached to external possessions.

time to build up the wall again. wall of defense and mental toughness.

time to be independent and face tough and lonely times..alone.

time to fully utilize my prefrontal cortex in defense to my amygdala which is ever-so-active. (amazed that the anti-bio person is speaking bio here)

time to ignore the partpeed. otherwise i'll be in deep shit.

)=

美丽的大海,包含了一切

preparation for 203 midterms:
1/3 2:30pm start first chapter.
2/3 11:00am finished first chapter.
2/3 3:00pm finished three chapters.
2/3 3:30-4:15pm finished the REMAINING THREE chapters.

i'm impressed with myself. blueh.

totally distracted from essay and preparation for trial run because of this song.



T.T

light. bright. delight.

weekends are great.
merely getting together and talk abt the same thing over and over again is awesome already.
unlike most of the weekdays where i've been mentally rehearsing what i need to do for 201, 203, 204, 212... and few seconds later it'll be 201, 203, 204, 212 again and again even when i'm in my first stage of sleep just to make sure i didnt leave anything out. obligation cum obsession )= the habit's hard to break.

'death week' awaiting. because
2nd and 4th march midterms.
3rd march trial run. (omg omg omg)
5th march pal tutor and assignment due.

still searching.

Friendship.

Friendship:

- "Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between people, or animals. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis." (Wikipedia, 2010)

- my definition for the past n years: about the same as stated above. i've always delved in friendship with pure and sincere intentions.

-my updated definition: i would like to add another statement to reinforce the definition. without mutual respect, friendship becomes a form of manipulation where the victim will be controlled like a puppet. friendship is at times, beastly.


will still study a bit because i duwan to disappoint those who really care for me.

that's all i wanna say today.

做人要惜福
还是活在当下吧=)

as expected, i met a lot of pp during cny.
but unexpectedly the excitement and passion of meeting everyone is diminishing.
not because the pp are less awesome
no worries friends, you pp still rock=)
perhaps the perception of impermanence is permeating through my brain holes (not literally of course).
also perhaps it's an excuse to neglect my awaiting....errands.

i'm tired.

and hmm...

february is good. so far.

once again, thank you peeps for adding colors to my life=)

and btw, should i continue to contemplate whether or not to be motivated?

lack of extrinsic motivation? (though it's the intrinsic that counts)

oh, and i'm feeling incompetent almost every friday 12:30 to 2:30pm.

i'm updating=)