New laptop!!!^^

yeahh....finally i got my own laptop><
i juz leave everything to my dad to choose the brand, design, cost etc etc
it's Toshiba...RM 2.3K....silver/grey cover...
but i just hope that it'll be green muahahaha...
but anyways...i'm quite satisfied with it...
except that it lags a lot...dunno why><...esp fb!

as for past exams and assignments...
let bygones be bygones><
let's hope that burning the midnight oil till 4++ am will work miracles on my papers...

for future exams and assignments....
errrr....
the future is uncertain.
hahah.


okay it's time to sleep.
back to the busy routine tmrw.
and thanks dudes for cheering me up=)
really appreciate that :D

Beware: super emo post.

i miss my old self.
now i'm one who's overly worried in almost everything...
and at crucial moments, i opt to shut myself up just to avoid doing things i'm supposed to be doing...
like now... blogging when there's an major assignment due tmrw...
sometimes i think i should just be indifferent and ignorant... just GIVE UP
many pp will think that 'since they're not caring... why bother??'
we can be a carefree person... eat, sleep, play....that should be the ultimate purpose of life...
so why bother??
but when obligations and responsibilities come into mind...
we have to take charge...and take necessary actions...
looking at some individuals who are so determined and PASSIONATE in achieving their missions and fulfilling their dreams...
i begin to think that i shouldnt be the low graded one...i should live up to my standards..and go beyond them...
but the environmental factor is just so depressing...
u cant dont friend someone just because u dont like them
humans are interactive beings...they need to socialize and be associative in order to survive in the world of reality...
but the cultural aspect tells me that i should learn to be patient...and wise...and calm at almost all times...
however there is also a voice telling me: 'just do it girl. be assertive. strive for things that u want. pp wont change for you. you have to change yourself first'
but being the worrier again... i'm overly cautious of the consequences i'll face...
i do not like fights, arguments, useless debates...
i want peace...and calamity.. and that's the main problem... I'M AFRAID TO CHANGE... afraid to be out of my comfort zone...
i have a choice now..
to take up all the burden and try in every possible way to be successful...
or to just leave everything behind and enjoy peaceful life and be a part of them...
although i'm pretty sure i'll chose the former one...
i can foresee how stressed up i'll be in the near future...
i just hope i wont collapse.

i need some advise=)

unfortunate.

okayyy. bad luck this time.
severe flu two days before start of midterms.
and it still doesnt get better now.
luckily biopsych wasnt as hard as i've expected it to be...
tmrw is research meth... can freaking die...
IMAGINE A TEXTBOOK WITH NO PICTURES AT ALL...o.O
and sat project management...hahaha...i need a miracle to get pass that...

assignments are still piling up...
i think i have about 7-8 at the moment?!
wth man...

okay time to study....
will try to be more positive after this month...

p.s. freaking hate a bunch of pp...

epilepsy. (kind of)

i am not behaving normally.
i really hope history wouldnt repeat.
everything is like a dream...

i don even know what to do, what to react, what to think.


p.s. this is just another typical midnight emo post.
p.p.s. first paper in 10 days time...freaking shit...

Tagged by Cecil=)

The Rules:



1. Take picture of yourself at this instant





2. Don't change your clothes, Don't fix your hair. Just take a picture





3. Post the picture taken with NO EDITING





4. Post your picture with the instructions





5. Tag 8 people







-i dont like the shadows
-i'm juz back from coll...hence unbathed... hence oily face
- i want a tanned skin
-my hair curled back effffff.....

i tag:
amanda
shu wen
jie hui
boon
janez
suat wei
huei mien
denise
and others who feel like showing off their faces LOL


p.s. i hope i'm better now...

things i wanna say today

1. midterm is actually in 2 weeks time. i think even 'hugging the Buddha's leg' last minute wont be of much use.

2. Phelps is on drugs. and he admitted it. unbelievable.

3. i'm trying to stay calm despite having many many group assignments(which i loath it) due this month.

4. i'm trying to live up to the true meaning of 出淤泥而不染. i believe that the presence of certain people will help me grow strong mentally... be it in a postive or negative way.

5. erm...i still wanna play mahjong and enjoy the moments of winning 5 rounds straight=)



reality is cruel.

happee cny=)

25th Jan
had cny eve dinner with aunt and grandpa at MY house==

26th Jan
went to BUBS. had vegetarian lunch. unexpectedly went to visit showhouses at SPK...also not forgetting Setia Eco Park, which we went for the nth time (dad n sis too desperate to have a semi-d><)

27th Jan
watched 大喜事--damn lame. mom cooked delicious dinner, because there's butter prawn=)

28th Jan
watched 赤壁--so-so. visited 姑婆. and 21 relatives from Klang came to visit.

29th Jan
went for lunch with Aunt Lily at Curve. then visited neighbour. then had dinner at aunt's house.

30th Jan
went to Pyramid with Sophia, Mun Hon and two of his chs friends whom i dont really know them. my bowling skills sucked to the bottomless pit><. i excused myself earlier because ehem ehem...=).... i mean because i wanted to be a good student by attending the only-one-hour tutorial class which i skipped it at the very last minute because of a seemingly stomach ache><... sry la dudes lol.. but anyway they came to my house with Lynn at night to play mahjong and chordaidi. 17 relatives from my mom's side came to visit=) [i actually counted lol]

31st Jan
rejected the primary skul gathering invitation because i missed s5 sooo much muahahahah.... about 8 of us went househopping... started all the way from Cheras(suatwei's house)... gambled...i mean they gambled not me k==... and then Chor Yeng's house for lunch and played a lil bit of piano and watched Lok Mun showing off his rubik cube skills lol... and then to tadaaaaa....
MY HOUSE! lol... we planned to visit other pp's house as well... but they got too high after playing endless rounds of mahjong, snap, 'KILLER' etc etc. sooo 3 hours gone==... honestly i'm really sry to other pp's house whom we've not visited lo... we'll visit next year k><..... and at night had dinner with kai mui n family=)... and u know what daa daa, my mom said your dad looks like a Thai o.O

1st Feb
caught by mom to climb Kiara hill again><... Auntie Phang came to visit... and now i'm watching the Federer vs Nadal match^^.... hope Federer would be able to gain his 14th Grand Slam title=p

Summary: this year's cny is full of 人气=) which is quite a good thing...
this is by far one of the best cny i've experienced
anyway it's time to settle down...
for midterm is just 3 weeks away(ignoring the fact that i've not obtained my textbooks and have not read a single thing nor done a single hw during the holidays><)

may i be blessed with good health, good results and great happiness=)