decisions. and schedules.

k guys i'm not really comfortable with my hair now.
it's too long and messy and i think my hair drop more than before omg.
so do u think i should cut it back short or juz keep it like that??
pls state your comments in my cbox yea thx^^
dont suggest stuffs like rebonding or ironing or wtvr because now i'm juz asking about my hair LENGTH okayyy....other adjustments on my hair...i'll decide later...

the fact that pursuing a psychology degree requires one to read and memorize a lot a lot a lot scares me...
plus i still have slight interest on music...
plus nowadays i find that Maths is fascinating as well...
so....Psychology+Music+Math=???
maybe i should take a double degree on music psychology and math?
hahahaha....i'm really really greedy....

wtf Mock is in less than a week time...
yes i'm studying....
but it's like damn damn damn slowwww....
slower than jing lynn's tortoise i supposed hahah....
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

about 26th September 2008

oh well i tot i might not be blogging about this bcoz i simply dont feel like blogging. no, no particular reason. dont think too much yea.

anyway, a big big big THANK YOU to those who gave and who promised to give me presents(and cakes as well). but to SOME who promised but didnt give me anything in the end it's OKAY lah. 本小姐超有风度的！！（等一下，是不是叫风度？==）

and also a big big big THANK YOU to those who actually rmb to msg me on the day(s) before or on the day or the day(s) after. seriously, u guys being able to rmb this oh-so-special day is even better than giving me prezzie.

and erm, yea. i am happy and contented. Terima Kasih banyak-banyak=p

ok, one more week till Mock.

and mom's in Germany.

haih.

eh eh not emo ar plsss.

Tagged by Shu Wen

1. What is the relationship of you and her? Course mate.

2. Your 5 impressions towards her. Responsible, caring, tolerant, hardworking, helpful.

3. The most memorable things she had done for you. erm. donno. lol.

4. The most memorable things she has said to you? erm. i rmb there was once when i was yawning with my mouth wide opened and she said that i looked like a baby. memorable?

5. If she becomes your lover, you will... hahah. no offense, but i would prefer my lover to be taller than me.

6. If she becomes your enemy, you will... erm. donno.

7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...erm. donno oso.

8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...breaking her promises?!

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is?donno.

10. The overall impression of her is..hardworking and responsible.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you? most of them think that i'm quiet which isn't really true.

12. The character of you for yourself is?Shien-Yinism (copyrighted from friend's blog hahah)

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?procrastinate, undecisive, being too kind to everyone??

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?do you mean who's my idol?? MICHAEL PHELPS. ^^ ok, be myself is better i guess.

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.i feel so proud of you guys because u've chosen the right person to care and like for. LOL.

Ten people to tag :
(i'm not tagging you guys, juz mentioning your names)

1. Amanda
2. Ying Hui
3. Xiao Chin
4. Jing Lynn
5. Jie Hui
6. Bin Yun
7. Mei Ting
8. Vania
9. Shi Ning
10. Denise
( i prefer all girls to avoid unnecessary rumours)

If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?nope. their characters are completely different.

How about no. 5 and 8?hahah...perfect!

What is no. 1 studying about?she's studying about a book entitled 'How Good Shien Yin Is'. I mean, ADP lah.

Is no. 4 single?er....i guess so...

Say something about no. 6 her singing is awesome.

( i guess most answers are kinda weird because i believe that all my friends are straight rite)

it was 17 years ago.

21st Sept

1. woke up at 1pm. (slept at 3 am last night)
2. felt a sudden stomach ache. mild diarrhoea. so skipped lunch.
3. practised a bit of er hu and then took a nap.
4. had p.
5. went gym, drained with sweat.
6. had yam cake, cheese cake and chocolate cheese cake for supper.
7. did some chem hw.

22nd Sept

1. woke up at 7.05 am. wth i'm late!
2. Sophia gave me presents! it was a photo frame with seashells sticked onto it which she collected from Redang i think. and also a 1GB memory card for my SE phone. muahahahaha. oh well it was shared among Sophia, Jing Lynn, Jaqueline and See Khee. Thx gurls!!~
3. crapped an organic chem and equilibrium essay. managed to strive through the lesson tho.
4. now....stomach cram lah.

anyway, what's so important about today is...

it used to be my late brother's birthday.

used to feel like crying on this day for the past few years...

but this year was okay.

well wasn't feeling sad coz he juz went off like that,

because when he went to another world, he was only one plus and i was only two plus. so u won't be having much feelings during that age ritee...

but the grief is still there...

as in, oh....i actually had a brother

but i don't have any now==

so guys, er...

appreciate your siblings?!!

fruitless morning.

am told to publicize this 'oh-so-interesting' event. lol.

B, X, S and M decided to go to ** college to attend this ** forum. well if X wasn't the driver, S wouldn't even go. so M's dad drove S and B to the bus stop to wait for X to come. and the only thing that made the whole morning interesting was that B was wearing an orange baju kurung with blue roses patterns on it for no reason. damn striking wei!!! so in the end the 4 of them managed to reach ** college quite early and so they went to mph to take attendance. and initially they planned to chao early bcoz that ** forum is bound to be freaking boring mana tau since B was wearing that stunning baju kurung so they thought it'll be hard to slip off from the hall afterwards. so even before the forum started they decided to juz ponteng and go home. so X drove us home and on the way X's car banged on the divider o.O. anyway 4 of them managed to reach home safely i think. so S continued her date with 周公 on the sofa.....*end of story*

p.s. everything sounds so secretive due to the presence of some act. nanti kena tangkap ma. for no reason wan== haih...你要自由？去死吧...

悲惨的社会

看了这几天的头条新闻，让极少哭泣的我也不禁流下一滴眼泪（一滴也很多了啦，世界上哪有人可以把本小姐弄哭？！）

说真的，如果继续待在这个地方，我真的看不到我的未来，所以以后还是叫全家（包括亲戚朋友）跟我一起移民哈哈。难怪即将出国旅行的妈妈也说，如果那边的人问她从哪个国家来，她铁定说不出口，最多只会说，自己是东南亚人。


希望还没被释放的两位能尽早逃出恶势力的掌控。

好了，不多说啦，免得像Boona Fide一样引起‘巨大’的回响哈哈...

Hoping for peace and justice.

Sentence 1: I am not feeling good.

Sentence 2: I am not doing good.

Sentence1+2: I am not feeling and doing good.

ppppppffffffttttttt.

favourite Q&A

a question asked by tungfaichun. which i think all of you might be asking as well.

- [b][c=#466033]晖俊B£rnärdTúÑg™ ♠[c=46]♥[/c]♣♦[/c][/b] says:
why u dun put pics

the reasons being:

1. i dont bring my camera along whenever i go for an outing. most of you will put pics that u've taken during outings with your friends and families ritee...i'll always give excuses such as i'm afraid that my 10.0 mega pixel Olympus camera worth more than 1000 bucks bought by dad from Japan will be stolen...or i'll say that i'm juz too lazy to take photos...

2. because my photo shooting skills sucks(another excuse).

3. because i'm not passionate in taking photos(another excuse).

4. because even if i do take one, i'm too lazy to post it on the blog coz it takes a long time to upload them(though i usually online for hours blog-hopping=p)

5. some might put up photos that they 自拍 or something. and i'm too 自卑 to do such things lo coz i dont think i look good. (i'm not against it okay...)

6. my families dont take photo de. so what's the point???^^

and plenty, numerous, thousands of reasons...

i hope that answers your question.teeheee.

wtf i'm supposed to be doing assignment now==

an experience.

it's 1 30 am now and i'm supposed to be sleeping though i had a 3-hour-afternoon-nap because i've got to wake up at 6 30 am to go to FRIM.

but i dont think i'll have the time to blog during weekdays simply because i've decided to concentrate on my studies*coughs madly*.

so what do i want to say? hmm...

oh yeah...went to visit some orphanage at SS3 today...some Ausmat field trip. i initially signed up for the old folks home but they switched me to the children home during a meeting discussion which i didnt turn up. wtvr. though no offense, i find it better to communicate with elderlies as i seriously cant handle situations when some children decides to become super mischievous and cry babies.

but it turned out okay though. some communications probs coz most of them only know how to speak Tamil. (i've finally realized the importance of learning the language!) but they were cute lar, seriously. we played musical chair and pass-a-parcel and 老鹰捉小鸡 and erm...all those games lah. it's really fun watching them running around without any worries, though yes, of course, their lifes are already much worst since the start. the only Chinese orphan is blind and she couldn't speak at all. and i think we scared her off because she's uncomfortable with the presence of so many ppl(she can't see anything but she feels it i tell u). i really hope she'll be much better the next time i see her, if given the chance.

drawing sesssions were interesting as well though yeah, yours truly is a complete artistic noob. a little boy asked me to draw a fish for him and so i drew him one(well drawing a fish wasn't that hard rite lol). then he said he wanted another fish so i drew him one. then he wants a bigger fish so i drew him one too. and so i ended up drawing 5 to 6 fishes at least. (man this boy is a fish maniac==). then he wants starFISH. zomg. then he wants me to fold him a kite which i didnt know how to. so i juz folded the paper into four halfs and said 'nah this is a kite.' LOL.

then our course mates who had been visiting the old folks home which was juz opposite the orphanage came and join us while waiting for the bus to come and pick us back to coll. and they told us their experiences which was so damn hell funny lol. that's what i heard:

first case: an old man asked an Ausmat student whether she 拜神 or not. and she said no coz she's a Christian. then he said in Canto '为什么你不拜神？一定要拜神啦，不然就被马达（警察）捉'.....==

second case: Sarah said one of the old folks asked her who's her father. she didnt answer that question then the popo suddenly burst out 'do u know that your father is my husband? i'm your mother u know...' LMAO.

third case and others: another old folk told Sarah to chase her mom away for no reason. and someone said his name's Obama. and someone said he doesn't have a name. and someone said that Hang Tuah and Hang Jebat are members of parliament(Boon you should come and have politic studies wif them lol). and someone attempted to snatch my friend's phone and asking everyone for their phone numbers.

no offense to the elderlies but....i think that place should be named as Tanjung Rambutan ritee...==....this shows that us kids have tortured them till that state. so NEVER SEND YOUR PARENTS TO OLD FOLKS HOME FOR WHATEVER REASON OKAY.

shit it's almost 2am now. finally manage to yawn zzzzzz.

Old Old Tag by Lok Mun==

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2.Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
er...basically no....techinically no....practically no....so yeah....no gua...

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
pretty(am trying to gain self confidence here)

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
the former.

4 ) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
er...yes...no?

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
of course....it's so great to love everyone in the world.

6 ) God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?
er....all the best.....take care....anyway that will depend on real life situations....

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
won't say anything. forget it and move on with my life.

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
er..i tot love is something intuitive?

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
they are normal.

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
they are lonely.


[[ * PART 2 * ]]
1) Best place to cry?
basically...no where. pathetic rite==

2 ) Who do you love the most?
myself. well i've got to love myself before i could contribute the love to others rite...

3 ) Tell us ur dream last night?
something untrue and redundant.

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
nope. told ya...i love everyone=p

5 ) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
er...no idea.


The last person
-you had a beer with? my family i think.
-Went to the movies with? family+cousins.
-talked on the cell phone with? dear mummy.
-u yelled at? no idea. seldom yell nowdays.

In the last week have you
~Kissed someone? nope
~Danced crazy? nope

Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
er....piling up hw's and assignments and tests....more of a frustration...

If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
i wish that everyone finds their true happiness.

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
Europe.

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
nope and will not.

Are you old fashioned?
k i'll admit. YES.

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
the former.

What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
love. (being abstract here)

5 Facts About Me:

1. rational and sensible most of the time
   
2. peace lover
   
3. i do not smile when i don't feel lyk it. and it's quite often that i don't feel lyk it.
   
4. can't live without afternoon naps.
   
5. introvert and lack of self confidence.
   

5 things that you hated the most
certain microanimals and microorganisms. super lala-ish people. that's all i guess.

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately

• 千山万水
• 王子的新衣
• 你们是我的星光
  
• When You're Gone
  
• My Way
  
• 好人
• Pirates of Carribean theme song
  

5 Things I treasure in My Life

• my bed
  
• my piano and er hu
  
• my family
  
• my friends
  
• my presence in this world(being abstract again)
  

7 important moments in My Life

1. the last few days towards the end of my Form 5 life
   
2. my birthday celebrations for the past 17 years
   
3. going out with the 'vegetable' gang
   
4. class gathering with 5S5
   
5. getting 2nd and 3rd for some arithmetic competition(coz the trophies are the biggest lol)
   
6. attending AOL seminar
   
7. having supper and dinner and lunch with my family and friends
   

7 Things I Always Use

1. water bottle
   
2. computer
   
3. fan(no air cons thank u)
   
4. sofa(for afternoon naps)
   
5. house and Sunway college toilets
   
6. handphone
7. newspapers
   

I will tag:
1. Amanda Leong
2. Ying Hui
3. Shu Wen
and er....anyone who sees this tag=p
i apologize for deciding to be mean heheh.

relieved

yes, i am relieved.

it's like...u've been sesat in the jungle for a long long time, not knowing the way out....suddenly there's a path lying right in front of you--path of ultimate happiness.

it's also like...when the world's coming to an end and u tot u're gonna die miserably...and suddenly u realize that..hey... your family and friends are right there beside you, walking with you till the end...

it could also be like...u've been drowning under the sea or pool and u tot that 'k this is my last breath, i'm gonna die after this'....then suddenly....taaaadaaaa!!! someone who's really good at swiming, e.g. MICHAEL PHELPS drags u away from the door of death. LOL.

anyway, i've grown up. i'm emancipating.

when u're maturing(mentally)....u will begin to see things clearly....u will understand the truth behind all deceptions and hatred...

but at the same time...u will begin to know how to lead a HAPPY life...a life that you've always wanted...a life that will lead you to the search of true happiness...

so dudes, do see things in a different perspective, if u're unsatisfied with your current condition. it's really not that difficult to be happy.

learn to appreciate, and show your gratitude whenever necessary. and learn to love and care wisely, and try your very very best not to regret after u've made a decision(i'm still working on this part).

these advices are not new to you, i believe. the question is, do you want it or not?...the question is, are you willing to take the first step to change your current(if unhappy) life conditions...

i took a pretty long time to realise this.

i am not saying that i'll be super super optimistic in the future.

but i'll try my best not to be too happy, and not to be too sad as well. it's all down to two words-- middle path.


in a nutshell, live for yourself. live the way you want it to be.

'nothing is impossible. impossible is nothing.'----------Adidas


p.s. i know which car i want now...it's Vios!!!!!!!!!hehehehhehe...