好久不见

真的好久不见~~

what a day.

today (20/11) was my father's birthday.
happy birthday dad!!
well i had to give credits my sister (you must be overjoyed to see this) for stressing herself up to plan awesome stuffs for our dad.
firstly we had this awesome lunch at the most awesome japanese restaurant and the awesome sashimi was simply...awesome. except that i didnt have the time to munch it slowly because while having my sashimi, i had a laptop on my lap for me to rush on my assignments><
we also had awesome dinner at a chinese restaurant. awesome food includes peking duck, shark fin soup (the real one), SNAIL meat, loh bak gou and prawn noodles=)
tomorrow would be awesome lunch again, the main dish being sis's signature pan mee (refer to previous posts for further information on how awesome her pan mee was).
also bought movie tickets for PREMIER hall at the Gardens to watch 2012. it could be awesome or dreadful.

speaking of assignment, i had a race against time today. and it was so 'chi gek'!!

3:30am : went to bed. only completed 40% of the assignment.
8:30am : woke up. i was supposed to wake up at 8 so damn shit, i still have a lot to do.
12:30pm : completed 70%. had to stop and bathe since i did not wash my hair yesterday.
1:00pm : left house to jap restaurant. intended to complete it in the car but unsuccessful as i felt like puking. (you know 'car sick')
1:30-2:30pm : enjoying sashimi while completing assignment. so not fun.
3:45pm : aunt drove and she took the wrong way so i reached home late. completed 90% but DUE TIME WAS 5PM OMG.
4:05pm: FINISHED! (of course the quality wasnt up to my standard, but oh well...)
4:15pm: finally managed to print the 20 pages long of assignment and i was cursing silently as the plagiarism website kept lagging.
4:20pm to 4:40pm: journey to college had never felt so long before. thought i couldn't make it on time because the jam was looming. but it's a group assignment, and we had 7 of us, and it was worth 30% of our finals, so i couldn't miss the deadline!!!
4:50pm: parked and rushed eight floors up and *poop*, in went the assignment into assignment submission box. phew! 10 minutes before due!

wow why m i writing so much crap. anyway conclusion is, i won the race but this just shows that my procrastination is getting serious day by day )=

and just now carmen called me and said Mr. Franklin(lecturer) posted an announcement that i got full marks for my Personal Development Assignment. honestly my feeling was unbelievable actually, more than overjoyed because the purpose of that assignment was to change our behaviours, which i obviously didn't. nevertheless, i think i got that high because knowing this lecturer for 11 months, i kinda figured out what he's expecting larh.

awww it's late. i just had my cough syrup which would make me very very drowsy. and so i shall sleep now, as i have colloquium to attend tmrw morning )=

life should be as interesting as today.

学习

以前很拼命,因为班上的同学太厉害,所以觉得分数不能这么难看,但从中也激发了我去学习很多很多...
现在的我也很拼命,但拼错了,拼的目标是为了能在凌晨三点钟赶完功课,而不是五点半,最后也得到还不错的成绩,但是身体状况不尽理想,连咳嗽都咳上了整个月...

今天,
了解到就算成功,如果得到成功的过程不对,也是一种失败...
了解到自己必须突破自己的眶眶...
了解到不要自以为高高在上,很用功,很有能力,就可以看不起别人.他们之所以会得到真正的成功,是因为他们拥有我所没有的...

累了...孤僻...自命清高...陷入深渊...走不出来...

[注:此篇纯属废话,不要想太多...]

black Monday.

*NOTE: author's negative energy on the rise. so you shouldnt be reading this, seriously.

Dear diary,

Yesterday(it's past 12am) was quite a bad day.

Firstly I was feeling the urgency to complete my group project but my brain wasnt spinning efficiently.

Secondly I was dejected when I got 18.5/25 for my commemorative speech. (keeps reminding myself: Shien Yin, complaining doesnt really solve the problem) but it rather amused me that for the 'main ideas easily followed' criteria, I scored an average because my speech was usually very structured and comprehensive. and shockingly for the 'physical actions effectively used' criteria I scored an EXCELLENT when i practically stood there doing nothing throughout the speech. hmm...... speech finals this wednesday and I really dunno what to improve on to win the lecturer's heart. it's true that sometimes life's unfair, and so I'll just accept it and do my best, because *self hypnotizing* marks doesnt really count rite? worst case scenario is just you couldnt get to the UK uni's that you wanted so badly because u fail to get an A for public speaking. SO WHAT?!

But oh dear diary, the day didn't end like that!! it's about the physically disabled girl, again. I know many of my friends have been through this a lot more than me, but taking care of the disabled girl for a mere few hours was getting into my nerves already.
Moral textbooks have been teaching us to be kind and helpful to the disabled, but they never taught us how to handle disabled people who are DOUBLE-FACED. Isn't it nerve-wrecking when every 10 seconds, she'll get into fits of pain and she'll start sliding off from the wheel chair and for 4 hours continuously, this guy in my group had to pull her back up and my friend and i had to shift her legs back to her normal position. and she'd just scream in the library asking for help without telling us how to help her. and seriously, if her condition was THAT serious, I wouldn't complain a single effing thing and just help her unconditionally.
BUT SHE'S NOT LIKE THAT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. she could be so serious in front of us, but when meeting some other people and during class, she was actually quite normal. girl, what are you trying to do man??

many other things happened during that four hours, which were so sickening that I dont even bother to elaborate here, until I sorta insulted her PUBLICLY. my friend and I were going to have class soon, so we actually took half an hour to sought for the next 'victim' that could help her out. and fortunately a female student approached her and offered to help. so we told her to keep an eye on her and pull her back up whenever she slides off the wheelchair. and in the end...

Me: (talking to the female student) Good luck. (in taking care of her)--i didnt say this out
Disabled girl: (offended) Are you saying good luck to her? Because of me?!
Me: Was I even talking about you? Don't think too much okay.
Disabled girl: (silence)

and then I walked off. and I'm NOT feeling sorry about that.
someone who happens to have such experiences/encounters, please do enlighten me on this issue.
of course if u've managed to read till this far haha.

i'm sorry dear diary for relasing my negative energy once again.

love (with much anger but am calming down now),
melodyorange

Blue Tomorrow

Today will be blue till tomorrow.
i wonder why m i blogging now when i'm still at the second sentence of my essay, due tmrw:D
and if i stay up late tonight, how m i supposed to tahan tmrw's class from 8 till 6?
ohh, so blue.
(but my fav colour is still green lah)

and stupid phlegm still stuck at the bottom of my throat. it refuses to come up to my mouth for me to spit it out>< well in other words it's sore throat lah.

and a song to make things blue-er.



great singing Kyuhyun^^

T.T

already half dead after i'm done with PDA, one of the most dreadful assignments I've ever had.
public speaking workshop review and econs essay due this monday. haven started T.T

and what makes me more T.T is...(refer to msn conversation below)

J.hui says:
hmm managed to not leave any blank spaces
guess thats an achievement
hey..really cant make it for pangkor?

{Melody} says:
u just reminded me to check my final exam timetable

J.hui says:
go go go go

{Melody} says:
*&^(&$)@&$_@(*$&@)($&@)*(
exam on 15th and 16th!!!!
ta ma de!!!

J.hui says:
chillchillchilll

{Melody} says:
one week of exams why must kena that two days????

J.hui says:
T.T
haih
nvm la

{Melody} says:
i'll ask ah boon to change the date hahahahah

J.hui says:
there'll be plenty next time
waaaaa
hahahaaaa
you can try~

{Melody} says:
gahhhhhhh i'm gonna cry T>T

J.hui says:
chill la
gives you more reason to do well in exam
baru worth it ma

{Melody} says:
haih.........
don think i'll hv change to go for the next trip
*chance
since i'll be at uk nxt yr...dunno coming back or not

J.hui says:
hmmm
next time we skype u
ahaha

{Melody} says:
bluehhhh
i'll think of a way to go man

J.hui says:
earn pounds over there la
then no worries
ahaha

{Melody} says:
hahaa
u might as well sponsor me la XD

J.hui says:
no prob..............in ur mimpi =)


*****
YES. SAYA TAK BOLEH PERGI. WTF.
I'LL SCREW MY PSYCH DEPT UNTIL THEY LET ME CHANGE MY EXAM DATE.
OR I'LL STOP S5 PP FROM COMING BACK SO THAT THEY'LL EXTEND THE PANGKOR TRIP FOR A FEW MORE DAYS...
I'LL DO WTVR I CAN MAN.

hahahhaa maybe i over-reacted a lil.
but considering my situation atm, i think it's quite normal to be so depressed about it.
so...bye. i'll bang the wall now.
someone pls tell me i'm dreaming now.

gone.

went with xiao chin and shi ning to Neway karaoke at 1u yesterday. thought i'll be back by 4 coz i've not started preparing my speech due today. in the end, we just had so much fun and we sang till 5:30>< 3 pp sang 3.5 hours of k was damn syok but my voice kinda cracked a lil. and shi ning said my driving 很恐怖==" (mana ada?!!) anyway we had fun fun fun fun and fun and we should really hang out again in the near future! ying hui, you must come okay!! btw, neway sucks coz it's freaking expensive><

speaking of commemorative speech, it's just... *dot dot dot*

due dates of assignments for the month of november ONLY (to remind myself to stop slacking):
2nd nov- commemorative speech (done)
6th nov- personal development assignment (progress: 10%)
9th nov- microecons essay (progress: ZERO)
11th nov- developmental psych journal (progress: ZERO AGAIN)
18th nov-persuasive speech (progress: ZERO X3)
20th nov- group project (progress: 10%)
30th nov- econs finals (can die)

the motto remains: psych students are psycho^^

oh on a lighter note, my sister emerged CHAMPION for her school's cooking competition!!!!
hoooray!!! *claps*
and who should she thank? ME. bcoz i gave her the idea of cooking pan mee. so unique than the ordinary spagetthi and fried rice hor.
she won herself a Swiss-made knive set worth 100 over bucks *gasp* , hampers and a plastic folder.
well done sue!^^

空洞.
情绪都跑到哪去了?
I guess the only mood that exists in my dictionary atm is moody. haha.
要找回那一份感动和纯真.
别跟那些人一般见识.
试着让自己更成熟,纪律,开朗些.
生活要有目标,才能往前走.
要活出自信,活出自己,活出精彩人生.
加油.

废话连篇! =)