Have been studying in college for the past 2 weeks...the environment to me is kinda different than in secondary school...there are lots more english eds here...which makes it kinda difficult to me(so used to speaking rojak)...tho less homeworks but more assignments(50% internal assessment ar...damn)...and yup, the problem that i had years ago resurface--loneliness is the word...well i know being in a different environment and experiencing coll life is a real challenge for most of the post form 5-ians...but i don really know what i'm feeling lonely for...friends? teachers? surroundings??...it's juz...i lost that sense of belonging...i can't take good control of situations...sometimes i wonder 'why the hell am i in college?? is this what i have been looking for??'... that makes me think back about the days in form 4 and form 5...yup...the s5 era...i didn't really appreciate the lovely moments previously and now when it disappears...i'm missing it badly...the teachers..the friends...everything...honestly, i can't find any class as motivating and yet entertaining as 4s5 and 5s5 esp...i know many pp think that i look 'overcool' or really darn fierce haha...i apologize yea...maybe if time can be reversed i would use two toothpicks and stuck them in between my lips to keep my mouth wide open yea...to show that i've got a bright smile lol...but well i know...everything has become the past...and what we have to do is to live in the present moment and strive for a better future...i admit i'm not someone who can adapt easily to changes...i was so furious that time when i suddenly had to change from MUFY to AUSMAT... i was so furious recently because i might have to change from Chemistry to Calculus... etc. etc.
but NEVERTHELESS... i still have to accept those challenges rite...and be tough('you', don't say i'm acting tough again)...time is of course the best medicine...so yea...may things be right~
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